So I am visiting my mom right now. baby is doing good. i figured out today that the poor guy still isn't getting enough to eat even though my milk has come in. I guess I will just have to give him a bottel hear and there after he nurses. wade is still up north althought he person who was supposed to be taining him this week is in washington. so he has been sitting in the office doing a whole lot of nothing. i am going through the regular crying spells that i knew would come. i was watching bones today and cried over it. yes I relized it was stupid but I couldn't stop. Then I got home sick. i have been crying over that most of the day. i cant go home though because I fear that my little angle and big helper would get the worse end of it. All he does is try and help. That little boy trys so hard and all I do is yell. I dont think He knows what to do with himself right now. He crys at night cause he wants his dad and there is nothing i can do about it. and I yell at hinm all day to not brake that , don't throw that, sont jump on your brother, no brother dosnet want a tast of your chip, no we dont cover brother with a blanket and jump on him, no we dont sit on brother, and the list goes on. how do you teach a 22 month old to handel a new born when he is still a baby himself? Luckely grandma and grandpa are there to save him. I hope things get back to normal soon.